How to Kiss for the First Time

Funny video I found on "How to Kiss for the First Time" thou the title is very misleading. It doesn't actually tell you how to kiss.

Highly useless but somewhat funny.

Sorry they disabled the embedding link so has to be URL.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dkQdI0AxxOI

Yours
Secret Virgin

Friends First

I have always been interested in how couples got together. A few have started out as brief encounters at bars and clubs, some chance encounters in the supermarket, a few good relationships I know started online, and then there is the friends first.

This is an idea I like. I am someone who doesn't trust someone immediately after I first meet them. But then with past experience with trusting someone I shouldn't have and the fear of letting myself be me and putting/scaring someone off doesn't really help that either. I also think I am a bit too choosy when it comes to men, I know I need to relax a bit if I am going to get anywhere at all.

I know I am not a striking women compared to my mates especially my face. I have a relatively nice/fit body that some women would kill to have and have made several hairdresser's jealous about my hair. Mainly colour I was told that my natural colour is a very commonly requested colour in salons which boosted my confidence so I take great care of it. I know my looks probably won't get me 2nd glances from men so I tend to rely on my personality and wit to charm someone for the majority. Thou there has been the rare approach in clubs from someone, but as I said that's rare and they are probably drunk.

This idea of friends first has great appeal, thou seems like a slow process. Which as a Virgin is probably a good thing. But then I have longed for passion, the sudden urge to have someone to hold, kiss, caress and feel. To be felt wanted, needed and loved at that moment in time. To just let myself go since I have been holding back for so long and be in the moment and really discover what I am all about.

I know sex is not the be end of a relationship and that friendship is an important part of it. But it's still has a large role to play and can't be something to take on lightly. You have to be happy with someone who you know has some understanding of what you are as a person.

But to get that moment with someone, and to let myself go is something I want very much. A rare moment to find.

Yours

Secret Virgin

Secret Virgin Interview

I was approached a couple of days back from the writer of The American Virgin blog and asked to do an interview for one of there regular features called "First Person".

Check out the interview here

Check out there blog here

Yours
Secret Virgin

Moody Depression

My mood is as dull as the weather today.

I went out for my daily exercise and the world just seemed dull. There was colour but seemed somewhat desaturated. I have once again entered into one of those days where I enter into a spiral of sadness and re-evaluate my life.

I exited from the house with multiple thoughts in my head. What's wrong with me? Why do other's assume I am not doing something because nothing has happened? Why am I not where I want to be in life? Why does the horizon seem close yet finds a way to escape me?

I know my life right now is very chaotic, what with struggling for work (freelance) and finding a new house. But I still feel stuck in a hole while the world continues to move. I am also fed up and angry and the constant "Something will come along soon", "Don't worry" bull crap that everyone keeps throwing at me. Soon has come and gone, the pity party is getting depressing and does not help my mood.

Threw out my university life I managed to convince myself that the reason I don't have a boyfriend/steady relationship is because I was too caught up in my studies. Now I convinced myself that the reason I am still alone is because my life is still not right and once I move things will happen. Well today I have rethought that. Did I come up with this to convince myself or to others? Am I still a virgin because I come up with these excuses not to be with someone, or as a fog to hide how unattractive men seem to find me?

What I do is very demanding and many in that field are alone because they are so career driven or are in a job that don't sit in the 9-5 routine. I like it like that, I don't like keeping to certain hours I like the unpredictable side of it. But with things being tough I have also questioned myself "Am I good enough?" I have even looked at what I have done and said "That is shit why am I doing this?". Nothing else excites me.

Is this why I am a virgin still? Because I don't see myself as being good enough? Or too caught up in work that I don't want to make a commitment? Or is it the fear of the grass not being greener on the other side?

I get angry at others, I get angry and put myself in a dark place, some days there is light but still in this dark hole of anger and sadness. Often this anger leads to action.

Something has to be done.

Yours
Secret Virgin

No Babies for Roger

Funny yet somewhat disturbing.



I have no idea what contraceptive device that is but looks scary. LOL

Got to love Roger.

Secret Virgin